Recent Events

June 4, 2008

  So recent events in my life should i say...at times i want to scream, dance, cry, laugh and so...i screamed but not out loud but inside and just voiced everything inside and just pretty muched surrendered and just said i give up and allow you into my life which at times i thought that you were around only when i am being good and just said forget you when i was bad...and i know now that it is not True what is true to me is that your the one person that can actually look at me inside and out and see my flaws and love me for me...Wow. God your Amazing... I allowed you in my life and i am so thankful for this journey that we are taking together, and understanding you as you have always understood me..yeah i know i am not perfect but in my heart and every fiber of me know i do the best and strive for being better in my life...To Dance is one of things that i most passionate about its away of expression and i dance when i am happy, giddy, just being weird, and at times when i am angry. at times i dance my feelings....I cry at times of the unknowing, the fear of something, happiness, joy, complete happiness and love i am not afraid to admit that i cry...i believe it allows me to be vulnerable and just surrender and just say " how do i do this?" for instance...crying is expression i believe doesn't make you weak it makes you( me ) stronger...I can say when i allowed you in my life and just dropped all walls that everyday i keep up it was really an unfamiliar feeling at first it was scary but then rewarding, exciting, a void that has been filled and is a really great feeling....God you have allowed me to see so much more in life. my life me personally and this is just an honor and I am so excited with love, laughter, joy, awesomeness, and still learning and understanding you...each day is a new day and i live it to the max. God Thank You for letting me in on this journey with you and understanding your love for me!